Hijab & A SisterĀ 

You see she takes it off
But you don’t know why she did
As painful as it is
This is not the time for you
To mention rulings
If it’s possible, ask
Understand
Don’t judge
Yes it’s wrong, and you should, deep down in your heart hate the act
Not her
But be mindful of your words
If you can’t say anything good then hush
Pray for her
Advice, if you need
But never, impose
Be gentle and careful with your words
For not only will be heavy on the receiver but also on the scales of the Day of Judgement
Seek to understand, and love
Always
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#airplanemode

11th floor.

Everything else below seemed small.

And so too are these you are carrying.

All your doubts, worries, insecurities, uncertainties, ongoing struggles.

You are exactly who you are

Just human

Ever so struggling

Always far from perfect

And so is your life

But no matter what

Keep in mind

That there’s always a bigger perspective

There’s a bigger world out there

While everything that may concern you is valid

Not everything that is valid need to be dwelled upon

Drowning and sinking deeper

Is not a healthy way to live

Therefore embrace the fact of the matter of your life in this world

Temporary it is

Remember

His Promises

Of the everlasting abode

That is

Waiting.

When your mind is super-clouded and overwhelmed, #airplanemode

When I Got My First Ever A in UniĀ 

An important reminder to self

It’s never due to my efforts alone

Not of any other past or future success too

Rather it’s many contributing factors He made possible

 

Happy

I finally know what’s my kind of study method

After years of trial and errors

After past education periods where I had little to no motivation to study 

Where I simply studied for the sake of it

To having and renewing multiple good intentions of what I do

Read and understand, make own notes, generate, review 

 

Never been the A student 

Or the bright student who seams through her studies effortlessly

Even though I’ve been told I look studious (haha) 

I require double triple the effort to do well

And Allah is fair 

To each his own strengths and weaknesses 

 

Support, motivation and reminders from my parents and close friends

“Nervous is good”

“Make plenty of duas”

“Believe in yourself”

 

Exams held within those four walls are, at the end of the day, just tests

They don’t always bring out the best in you

But they can be a fair yardstick to measure your effort 

So put in the effort first With plenty of duas to Allah whose Knowledge is above all of His creations, He who allows you to remember when you forget, He who inspires you

 And that is the very essence of tawakkul 

Whatever that you’ve learnt 

Place your full trust in Him 

One can only rely so much on one’s memory and intelligence

 But all that is not possible for retrieval or proper usage if not by His permission 

And make selawat upon the Prophet (peace be upon him) whom through which Allah will open doors for you 

 

May I always remember 

To be grateful for every single thing 

To always put in the effort and give my best no matter the circumstances 

To constantly be in the state of remembrance of Allah swt and His Beloved 

You MatterĀ 

Mood: making my voice heard in my own way 
An instagram story of words, yet it’s me voicing my thoughts, projecting them out to the world

It’s a big deal to me, really

When I find myself engaging in comparison going down the downward spiral of “and then there’s me”

Stop, don’t do this to yourself. You need to control these negative thoughts, don’t let them get to you.

You’re better than this, stronger than this.

Yes I’m still figuring it out, to each and everyone their own battles
You either know because people share or you don’t because people keep it away from the public eye

And same goes with you too darling

Realising that where I am and where I want to be is a gap
Doesn’t mean I’m not making progress

Going back to the instagram story
Yes I have my own thoughts and opinions too
And they matter
Absolutely
I’m free to share them as long as it’s within the limits

I matter.

I am enough.

Qadr Allahu wa Masha Fa’al

which means: Allah has decreed it and what He willed has happened
A phrase I first heard, spoken by an ustaz who was the moderator for the talk with Mufti Ustaz Fatris & Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin few weeks ago. He was referring to how it’s not easy to bring the both of them together yet the Qadr of Allah made it easy.
And so I was reminded of the phrase few days ago when I had a bout of mild food poisoning. Terrible, definitely. I couldn’t make it for kak Huda’s walimah and intuitively I sort of knew I couldn’t make it for the KL trip the next morning. True enough.

I had been looking forward to it all week, plans to go to the book fair and buy lotsa books, buy dresses and hijabs, explore the place, the food, basically a wind-down before I start prepping for my exams.

And I’ll end with this.

Grateful still,
For my ever-loving mum who cares for me in every inch possible
Despite her exhaustion
Decided to change her half-day work to today so she could cook for me
For my dad and little brother who cares too in their own ways
For a caring friend as well
Count your blessings
Always
If you think you’ve had it real rough
Know that it could’ve been worse
None of it will go to waste
An expiation of sins insyaAllah
Just be patient
Don’t complain
A lesson too
To teach you.

On Prayers, Departure & AmbitionĀ 

Death,
Will we ever be ready, truly?

We prayed the jenazah prayer for my late great grandmother today
Prayer upon prayer
Our hands to the skies
We ask of Him
For the one lying in front of us
Forgiveness, mercy

I can’t help but wonder
How will it be when our turn is up?

What will the people remember of me?
Will they pray for me?
Will I be a person such that I deserve His Love and Mercy?

The answer is up to me

Our mind is a blessing
And a responsibility
So when I decided today
What do I want to be?
A good person.

“Aku nak jadi orang yang baik”.
Camne nak jadi orang baik? Buat baik.
Teringat kata-kata Mufti Ustaz Fatris, macam-macam  perkara baik yang kita boleh lakukan. Sedangkan mengetepikan perkara di jalanan yang boleh jadi halangan untuk orang lain adalah sebahagian dari iman..
Jangan remehkan perkara ‘kecil’. Tak kira baik atau buruk. Sebab dua-dua ade kesannye kepada kita, tak termasuk dosa atau pahala kerana mungkin jugak orang lain yang terjejas.

A simple sentence yet holds so much weight and meaning.
May Allah swt ease.