An unforgettable night
To see the moon red, then crescent with visible black shadow to a bright, bright full moon
How is it for a mind to comprehend a spectacle this beautiful
For the Creator to have set such a rare occurrence
Nothing short of subhanAllah
The beauty that is the moon
Then you remember your Prophet ﷺ
Imagine seeing his beautiful face
Just for a while
May the heart be always yearning and loving
Reset and renew
Intentions to have Allah swt and Rasulullah ﷺ centre
To love His Beloved more than any other creation
To follow his sunnah to the best of your ability


Love & Pray Conference 

Below will be just about a verse of the Quran that one of the speakers, Dr Halima Boukerracha touched on. Amazing how we can get so much just from this one verse on the story of Prophet Musa AS, Firaun and his wife Asiyah RA.

Al-Qasas 28:9

وَقَالَتِ ٱمْرَأَتُ فِرْعَوْنَ قُرَّتُ عَيْنٍ لِّى وَلَكَۖ لَا تَقْتُلُوهُ عَسَىٰٓ أَن يَنفَعَنَآ أَوْ نَتَّخِذَهُ‌و وَلَدًا وَهُمْ لَا يَشْعُرُونَ

And the wife of Pharaoh said, “[He will be] a comfort of the eye for me and for you. Do not kill him; perhaps he may benefit us, or we may adopt him as a son.” And they perceived not.

Based on the verse, we’re able to extract some lessons.
First, Firaun’s wife, Asiyah RA, understood Firaun’s personality. She didn’t plan to convince him that he is wrong- especially for someone who claims he is God. Second, she made use of positive language. She could’ve said “Are you mad? What in the world are you thinking? You can’t kill that baby!” you know, something along those lines. Just imagine Firaun’s response if she said that. But she didn’t. Third, she explained the benefit of her argument. Lastly, she understood the needs and weaknesses of her husband and she addressed it. Asiyah and Firaun didn’t have sons, only daughters. She is so intelligent masyaAllah. What do we learn from this? The importance of learning negotiation and conflict resolution skills. Also to understand the personalities of those around us. Not just for marriage but for our communication with others.

Plus, the faith of Asiyah didn’t budge despite how her husband is, well, Firaun. She didn’t see it as an excuse. Another woman might have just given up and saw no point in fulfilling her mission to Allah and think, “How can I and what’s the point if I’ve a husband like him?”. Makes me think back to all the married couples. Look no further, our parents aren’t perfect too. But their imperfections don’t stop them from doing their best in fulfilling their rights as spouses to one another and as a servant to Allah. For singletons including myself, I’m sure we want a good partner right but we cannot expect him or her to be perfect even though he or she seems perfect (ok maybe just early stages? haha). Because we will live with them and see through all their strengths and weaknesses. And we’re all just human. We ourselves aren’t perfect anyway.

Dr Halima also mentioned how a successful marriage survives because a couple invest in their similarities AND manage their differences well. This is an especially important reminder, time and time again, for myself first, because marriage extends wayyy beyond the beautiful insta-worthy pictures that makes it seem like a whole lot of sweet loving goodness that we’re missing out on. It’s really more than just the wedding. It’s a lifelong commitment. There’s plenty to learn prior to marriage, maybe on top of attending a marriage course, pre-marital counselling might be good too? To address certain issues. Even after marriage, the learning continues. What more with children and all. May we be always willing and stay committed to learn and improve on ourselves, married or not. Because at the end of the day, the only relationship that lasts is our relationship with Him.

Quran Journal (QJ) 2: Sufficient 

One theme I get from this verse is centrality. We have many things going on in our lives but I feel it’s very important to always ask ourselves these 2 main questions. Amidst our wants, aspirations and needs, what is our main goal in life? Who do we put as centre? Is it a celebrity, a particular someone, a spouse or children? Or is it Allah swt and Rasulullah ﷺ ?

The other way I think of it is such that if our world were to crumble into pieces will we also fall apart or will we still be strong? And if we are strong what is it that gives us the strength to hold on? Thus for me the only answer is the handhold that never breaks and that is Allah swt. It scares me the possibility of us having everything that we desire of this world but we don’t have Allah swt.. may Allah protect us. This verse reminds me that it is absolutely okay to not have everything or to understand everything that happens because we have Allah swt. Because when we have Him, this brings me to the next point that..

Allah’s knowledge suffices us. Our knowledge and understanding as humans is only limited as compared to that of Allah swt, our Creator, who knows us best. And it brings a sort of comfort and humility to realise that I don’t know everything and I don’t really understand everything right now but in due time He will make me understand. In a way I figure it teaches us patience and forbearance. Also, it is a reminder on trusting Allah’s perfect timing. No matter what people say, that’s just that. When you do get caught up with social comparison and the likes, remind yourself that His timing is always, always in your favour and thus, is perfect.

To elaborate, we should care less about the people and care more about how Allah sees us. This is a personally crucial point for me as I tend to get worked up with people’s perceptions which are basically, at the end of the day, just perceptions and assumptions which may not be true. Here I believe it takes courage to do me and to live by what I believe is right as aligned with the Deen. And this is where I believe renewing many good intentions help, with whatever that you do. Intentions for posting that picture, writing a new entry on the blog, sharing something with friends etc. If you do it for the people and their pleasure, it’s usually a set-up for disappointment but if you do it for His sake, nothing will go to waste, even if you don’t see the immediate rewards, insyaAllah.

Building this mentality of “They don’t know and it’s ok, Allah know and that’s enough” when you pray for someone. How you wish they only knew? Perhaps that’s the wisdom behind praying for someone in their absence. To keep it sincere and a way of manifesting our love for them for His sake.

Actionable (for myself first): to recognise and make time for moments when it’s just me and my Creator. Make it quality time. When does it last feel that nothing else mattered but you and Him?

Little Victories 

Yesterday night was the last lesson for the term before exams and we had the choice to either turn up and prepare for a group presentation or do an individual assignment as a replacement. Earlier I told myself I’d come and when a friend said she didn’t want to because she said she hated presenting, stage fright and all that I managed to motivate to come. For the record I never liked speaking in front of a group and I’d avoid it at all costs. But deep down I knew I had to learn to face my fears and this was one aspect of myself that I wanted to improve on.

And so earlier today when I got to know through an email by our lecturer that the groups were gonna be randomly assigned, I shrinked. Not only would I have to deal with the presentation but the thought of working with other classmates with whom I might have never spoken to spells the word dread in caps in my mind. Shucks. Then I told my friend I suddenly felt like doing the individual assignment. I expected her response afterwards of course haha. What irony is this Syiidah. I can imagine her saying “You were the one who motivated me and now you’re chickening out”. And then she reminded me of our main intention which is to overcome our fear by purposely choosing and putting ourselves through such situations so we can learn. We won’t be perfect of course but that’s not the purpose. The purpose is to choose to be brave when we can sit comfortably by the sidelines. The purpose is to learn through the process and grow. I’ve none to impress but rather to do my best. And she also reminded me that once I’ve set on a decision, I should put my trust in Allah. Ahh I’m so grateful for her alhamdulillah.

Another thing is that this episode reminded me to keep reminding myself to always work towards the person I envision myself to be. I love watching and observing confident, poised and eloquent people and I kinda want to be like them too. In my own kind of way biidhnillah.

And so the night ended and I did present. I’m glad I did. There’s definitely more that I can work on but I take comfort in the fact that I chose growth and progress for myself today. I will get what I intend for insyaAllah one day but I gotta take steps towards it. I was reminded of the fact that a week ago I actually did a group presentation too at another place so if I could do it then I definitely can do this one. So don’t belittle yourself, ever. Don’t bother about others, you know yourself better and this is your own journey. Whatever little progress IS a progress. At the end of the day, the choice is ours. So may we keep on choosing courage, keep on choosing growth, keep on choosing progress.

An October Weekend & Reminders 

Had a pretty packed weekend. And some reminders and reflections, may it be of benefit!

Empower yourself with knowledge. Seek knowledge and always be learning even if you may have to travel a little bit far. Renew your intentions. At the same time, remind yourself that it’s always adab first before knowledge. Keep a check on yourself and your heart. Istighfar always for our sins are so plenty we’ve no time to criticise or judge others.

Get a hold of yourself when you start to think ill of someone.
By the way, I’m not sure if you know about this peeling gel in the market. It gets rid of your dead skin cells, whiteheads etc. I recently used it and it’s so good. Your face would feel so so clean afterwards and I can’t help but think, if only it is this easy to cleanse our hearts eh 💔 Guess this is our jihad then. Our ongoing struggle and fight to continously cleanse our hearts and better our character.

People will disappoint you, time and time again. Plans will not go as planned. Don’t dwell on it. It may be that you dislike it but it’s good for you. Move on.

Nothing is quite as attractive as a passionate person. Someone may be average-looking to the majority but I personally find that if he or she speaks and exudes positivity and love through what he or she does and believe in, that’s truly beautiful. Through a mental health training I attended yesterday, I saw some really passionate, knowledgeable and sincere doctor, counsellors, caregivers. So much love/passion/enthusiasm, so much life. Inspiring alhamdulillah.

Wanted to attend a talk on manners by al-Maghrib but I only got to know about it on the event day so it was too late. The day after, a dear friend shared with me her notes! How did she know?? Allah knows. And Allah send these beautiful souls. Allah suprises us in beautiful ways, we just have to notice..

What you focus on, expands.

If you’re reading this, may Allah swt ease your affairs and may you have a blessed week ahead 🙂

KL Learning Excursion #2

Takeaways from a tausiyah by Tuan Guru Haji Hafidz of Yayasan al-Jenderami. This place is really beautiful and serene, masyaAllah.

On the light that is ‘Ilm.

Ilmu mesti dipelajari bukan setakat dengar-dengar.
Kite mesti datang pada ilmu. Jangan pernah rasa ilmu di dada cukup. Dapatkan ilmu bukan sahaja daripada institusi seperti Pergas, Andalus, Zuhri etc. 

Nasihat Imam as-Shafie 6 syarat untuk dapatkan ilmu:
– Kecerdasan
– Semangat
– Bersungguh-sungguh
– Kerelaan hati untuk mengeluarkan wang
– Bersahabat dengan guru
– Memerlukan waktu yg lama.

Nescaya ilmu kamu berkat walaupun sedikit tapi mesti jaga adab. – I’m curious if any of my blog readers have any notes/video lectures on this topic of adab. If you do, please comment!

Mintak Allah tunjuk pada kite siapa kite patut dengar dan belajar agama. Sekarang zaman fitnah. Banyak orang cakap pasal agama. Banyak orang alim tak banyak orang faqih/soleh.

Khidmat pada ilmu. Dekat al-jenderami pelajar budak-budak yang bersihkan lantai.

Jangan biarkan sedih dan luka kawal diri kite. Jatuh bangkit lagi. Jatuh bangkit lagi.

The library at IIUM Crescent.

Look! The books of Hadith 🙂

This is us at the TV Al-Hijrah broadcast centre, super-stoked to be there alhamdulillah.

KL Learning Excursion #1

A few days ago, I came back from KL for a learning excursion under Pergas. It was a really enjoyable and meaningful trip alhamdulillah. We visited several places including the International Islamic University Malaysia, TV Al-Hijrah broadcast centre, Islamic Arts Museum and Yayasan al-Jenderami.

Firstly, I’m especially thankful and excited for this opportunity because I was supposed to go to KL few months back with some of my family members. There was a book fair so no doubt I wanted to go. And of course to shop heh. But I was down with mild food poisoning the day before and I couldn’t make it. QadrAllahu masha Fa’al (Allah has decreed it and what He willed has happened). Kept telling myself Allah knows best.

Indeed. Who would’ve thought that a few months later an opportunity would arise that would allow me to go? And in fact, for more purposes than just shopping and books? I wouldn’t have known. If we would only wait and just be a little patient, what surprises would Allah have for us? If we would just chill a little and don’t be too upset that we don’t get what we want when we wanted it? For all you know, He is delaying it to a time that’s better, in fact, He will give you more than you expected. And this is just Sg-KL guys haha. Also, this is just concerning matters of the dunya. Imagine the immense and unimaginable rewards that awaits us if we just bore patience for the things that we think are withheld from us when in fact He is giving us? SubhanAllah really. A reminder to myself firstly. May Allah swt grant us the wisdom and clarity in our journey to Him.

Will share more pictures and takeaways from the trip on the next post insyaAllah.