A Prayer for our Teachers 

This morning I went for class and my Ustazah looked a little different. Me being highly sensitive to subtle changes in my environment and people can’t help but notice. She taught as per usual, but I just felt something was not quite the usual. She didn’t really smile, may be feeling under the weather? Or maybe something is bothering her mind. Or perhaps she’s just having one of the lady days. The possibilities are endless. Maybe I’m not even accurate about my gut.

But that’s not my point. It just got me thinking about our asatizahs. And how they’re human too. I remember one ustaz mentioned about how them being on the Deen, teaching and all, their tests are nothing but great.

So for all the ones who put a strong front for their work to serve others and Him, may He relieve their worries and anxieties, grant them strength and patience in face of challenges and grant them happiness in this world and the next. May they always seek peace and tranquility in the remembrance of Him and His Beloved s.a.w. and may they be rewarded greatly for their every effort in facilitating the way towards Him.

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Little Victories 

Yesterday night was the last lesson for the term before exams and we had the choice to either turn up and prepare for a group presentation or do an individual assignment as a replacement. Earlier I told myself I’d come and when a friend said she didn’t want to because she said she hated presenting, stage fright and all that I managed to motivate to come. For the record I never liked speaking in front of a group and I’d avoid it at all costs. But deep down I knew I had to learn to face my fears and this was one aspect of myself that I wanted to improve on.

And so earlier today when I got to know through an email by our lecturer that the groups were gonna be randomly assigned, I shrinked. Not only would I have to deal with the presentation but the thought of working with other classmates with whom I might have never spoken to spells the word dread in caps in my mind. Shucks. Then I told my friend I suddenly felt like doing the individual assignment. I expected her response afterwards of course haha. What irony is this Syiidah. I can imagine her saying “You were the one who motivated me and now you’re chickening out”. And then she reminded me of our main intention which is to overcome our fear by purposely choosing and putting ourselves through such situations so we can learn. We won’t be perfect of course but that’s not the purpose. The purpose is to choose to be brave when we can sit comfortably by the sidelines. The purpose is to learn through the process and grow. I’ve none to impress but rather to do my best. And she also reminded me that once I’ve set on a decision, I should put my trust in Allah. Ahh I’m so grateful for her alhamdulillah.

Another thing is that this episode reminded me to keep reminding myself to always work towards the person I envision myself to be. I love watching and observing confident, poised and eloquent people and I kinda want to be like them too. In my own kind of way biidhnillah.

And so the night ended and I did present. I’m glad I did. There’s definitely more that I can work on but I take comfort in the fact that I chose growth and progress for myself today. I will get what I intend for insyaAllah one day but I gotta take steps towards it. I was reminded of the fact that a week ago I actually did a group presentation too at another place so if I could do it then I definitely can do this one. So don’t belittle yourself, ever. Don’t bother about others, you know yourself better and this is your own journey. Whatever little progress IS a progress. At the end of the day, the choice is ours. So may we keep on choosing courage, keep on choosing growth, keep on choosing progress.

An October Weekend & Reminders 

Had a pretty packed weekend. And some reminders and reflections, may it be of benefit!

Empower yourself with knowledge. Seek knowledge and always be learning even if you may have to travel a little bit far. Renew your intentions. At the same time, remind yourself that it’s always adab first before knowledge. Keep a check on yourself and your heart. Istighfar always for our sins are so plenty we’ve no time to criticise or judge others.

Get a hold of yourself when you start to think ill of someone.
By the way, I’m not sure if you know about this peeling gel in the market. It gets rid of your dead skin cells, whiteheads etc. I recently used it and it’s so good. Your face would feel so so clean afterwards and I can’t help but think, if only it is this easy to cleanse our hearts eh 💔 Guess this is our jihad then. Our ongoing struggle and fight to continously cleanse our hearts and better our character.

People will disappoint you, time and time again. Plans will not go as planned. Don’t dwell on it. It may be that you dislike it but it’s good for you. Move on.

Nothing is quite as attractive as a passionate person. Someone may be average-looking to the majority but I personally find that if he or she speaks and exudes positivity and love through what he or she does and believe in, that’s truly beautiful. Through a mental health training I attended yesterday, I saw some really passionate, knowledgeable and sincere doctor, counsellors, caregivers. So much love/passion/enthusiasm, so much life. Inspiring alhamdulillah.

Wanted to attend a talk on manners by al-Maghrib but I only got to know about it on the event day so it was too late. The day after, a dear friend shared with me her notes! How did she know?? Allah knows. And Allah send these beautiful souls. Allah suprises us in beautiful ways, we just have to notice..

What you focus on, expands.

If you’re reading this, may Allah swt ease your affairs and may you have a blessed week ahead 🙂

KL Learning Excursion #2

Takeaways from a tausiyah by Tuan Guru Haji Hafidz of Yayasan al-Jenderami. This place is really beautiful and serene, masyaAllah.

On the light that is ‘Ilm.

Ilmu mesti dipelajari bukan setakat dengar-dengar.
Kite mesti datang pada ilmu. Jangan pernah rasa ilmu di dada cukup. Dapatkan ilmu bukan sahaja daripada institusi seperti Pergas, Andalus, Zuhri etc. 

Nasihat Imam as-Shafie 6 syarat untuk dapatkan ilmu:
– Kecerdasan
– Semangat
– Bersungguh-sungguh
– Kerelaan hati untuk mengeluarkan wang
– Bersahabat dengan guru
– Memerlukan waktu yg lama.

Nescaya ilmu kamu berkat walaupun sedikit tapi mesti jaga adab. – I’m curious if any of my blog readers have any notes/video lectures on this topic of adab. If you do, please comment!

Mintak Allah tunjuk pada kite siapa kite patut dengar dan belajar agama. Sekarang zaman fitnah. Banyak orang cakap pasal agama. Banyak orang alim tak banyak orang faqih/soleh.

Khidmat pada ilmu. Dekat al-jenderami pelajar budak-budak yang bersihkan lantai.

Jangan biarkan sedih dan luka kawal diri kite. Jatuh bangkit lagi. Jatuh bangkit lagi.

The library at IIUM Crescent.

Look! The books of Hadith 🙂

This is us at the TV Al-Hijrah broadcast centre, super-stoked to be there alhamdulillah.

KL Learning Excursion #1

A few days ago, I came back from KL for a learning excursion under Pergas. It was a really enjoyable and meaningful trip alhamdulillah. We visited several places including the International Islamic University Malaysia, TV Al-Hijrah broadcast centre, Islamic Arts Museum and Yayasan al-Jenderami.

Firstly, I’m especially thankful and excited for this opportunity because I was supposed to go to KL few months back with some of my family members. There was a book fair so no doubt I wanted to go. And of course to shop heh. But I was down with mild food poisoning the day before and I couldn’t make it. QadrAllahu masha Fa’al (Allah has decreed it and what He willed has happened). Kept telling myself Allah knows best.

Indeed. Who would’ve thought that a few months later an opportunity would arise that would allow me to go? And in fact, for more purposes than just shopping and books? I wouldn’t have known. If we would only wait and just be a little patient, what surprises would Allah have for us? If we would just chill a little and don’t be too upset that we don’t get what we want when we wanted it? For all you know, He is delaying it to a time that’s better, in fact, He will give you more than you expected. And this is just Sg-KL guys haha. Also, this is just concerning matters of the dunya. Imagine the immense and unimaginable rewards that awaits us if we just bore patience for the things that we think are withheld from us when in fact He is giving us? SubhanAllah really. A reminder to myself firstly. May Allah swt grant us the wisdom and clarity in our journey to Him.

Will share more pictures and takeaways from the trip on the next post insyaAllah.

Dear Hopeful Singleton 🌹

Throwback to last Sat’s session with the amazing ladies above, Aida Azlin & Ustazah Liyana Musfirah. Below are my takeaways, may it be of benefit! 

Ustazah Liyana:

Know yourself

Who am I first?
Servant of Allah
Follower of Prophet pbuh
Khalifah fil ardh. Our words and actions equally preaching Islam
Daughter to your parents
Sister to your siblings

Hijrah: to a better me, to a better single version of myself

Doa when looking at yourself in the mirror

Polish your mind, body & soul and heart with knowledge and experience

We’re so blessed in the sense that we’ve got the time and space to work on our relationship with Allah swt

Aida Azlin:

Things I tell my single myself
🌸To be grateful for whatever Allah places you right now
Think about all the other aspects that Allah is taking care of for you now

🌸Cultivate an Optimistic mindset while waiting
Remind yourself
Be happy for those who gets married. Allah got their backs like He’s got yours

🌸Get to know the 3 VVIPs
*Marrying doesn’t solve all your problems
Allah.
Prophet Muhammad saw.
Yourself. Just think of 3 things you love about yourself.
You can’t have someone else in your life till you’re rock solid about yourself.
What is self-worthiness to you? Knowing that you’re deserving of the best because you’re created by the best Allah swt
Seek what’s best for you. The best company, the best experiences, you know you deserve nothing less than the best.

When you have self-worthiness you stop looking to other people to give you happiness.
This man is just gonna complement you not add you or subtract from you. You’re whole by yourself💕

Self worthiness is yours for the taking.
no one can give it you or take it from you.

You are capable of being the best
To be the best at what you do is a form of dakwah

🌸All states are temporary so don’t allow yourself to get too sad or too happy.

Waiting may not be fun but it is necessary.
The worship is in the waiting
The strengthening is in the waiting
The closeness to Allah is in the waiting
Waiting is part and parcel of life. Good things come to those who wait. This is dunya. Remember Allah got your back.

2 types of single person
First is the one who sits around and don’t really do anything to find the one. Complain only lol.
Second is the one makes the effort. Go out and meet people, seek help from parents/elders/friends. Make plenty of dua and lots of tawakkal. Like AA and Ustazah Liyana’s personal stories.
So which one are you? Not to say that marriage is a goal. It’s just a means. Like Aida said, you will somehow ‘know’ when you’re ready so if you really are then make the effort and dua + tawakkal. Otherwise, keep working on yourself and be of service to others and who knows along the way you just might meet the one😉

Let go.

Let go. Let go of the need to be correct. Let go of the need to protect your ego. Let go of your assumptions of others which may very well be untrue. Let go of the victim mindset trap. Let go of your expectation that people should act and behave as how they should do to you. Remember it’s not always about you. Sometimes it’s their problem and it’s nothing personal. Well, maybe I’m right about my presumptions after all. Maybe I do feel the need to prove my point because I cannot bear to admit my own mistake. But my heart is so much more precious than all that and I need to protect it. Protect it from growing seeds of suspicion, animosity etc.

I’m reminded of the quote by Omar Suleiman that goes something like I’d rather come on the day of judgement having thought good of an evil person rather than thinking that a good person is evil. We may be wrong with our assumptions but it doesn’t hurt to at least try and make an excuse for them.. Whatever it is.

To work on your heart start with these seemingly small things that are, indeed huge. #heartwork